inception

nah. havent watched the movie yet but hopefully, tomorrow, my family date will push thru. its been a while...

yes, im back home. though it's still as crazy as before, crazier since the house is having a make-over, i still feel at my best here. something i badly need. the past days have been all work, no play. play would usually mean a pause from being a slave of my laptop and a surprisingly in-your-face unmet expectations. amidst all these, i've been thinking about where my life's at and all that crap. why i have been oblivious to things, which always ends up someone getting hurt with noone else to blame but me? why am i missing the old, funny, goofy me? why do i feel im not doing enough and yet i fear that i maybe doing too much but things still end up badly?

why am i such a mess that i sometimes question my self-worth?

i guess more than just having a break from the usual, this quick get-away helped me find my value again. that though i feel different inside the four corners of my room in that lah lah land, this weekend made me find myself. i'm deeply grateful for this family who makes me believe in things again.

happy weekend everyone! this may not make sense at all but i'm just really happy to be here. cheers! :)