the truth is...

from that house episode and the interesting topic this morning over mo's, i personally think that the issue with cheating is not the affair but the lying. the going behind your back, the denial of the real issue with your SO, the feeding of curiosity. whatever reason it may be, i believe it is something that can be talked about. it's painful - true. the feeling is overwhelming that it hurts physically, like your heart literally feels a pinch. or more like a thousand needles poking one and all at the same time. but what actually hurts more are the lies. the direct and indirect lies. the lying by ommission. the feeling of not being able to do something just because you do not know.

the betrayal from someone whom you love more than your own life. the one who then takes you for granted thus the cheating.

i'd rather be told in my face than going through the slow process of gut-feel, excuses, lies and more lies, proof, confrontation, and yes, more lies.

i prefer knowing than being blind-sided even if it hurts. atleast i feel respected when people are honest despite causing pain.